Un-Domestic Woman

I have been

undomesticwife — Mon, 12 Jan 2009 23:14:16 +0000

scrapping, just not posting them here. I have been trying to keep up. Got behind on the weekend so I am catching up now. I have done animal ( favorite-not a pet)

best friends

Cousins

feet (from baby to teenager, same with hands)

Live

love (first love) or puppy love

Niece

siblings

Son

so that’s all for now. School started Jan. 10th again. so off we go on the rat race. I have one person in one of my classes that is getting her degree in CVT (certified vet tech), so she can do research and development on animals. Grrrrr. That kills me. Did you know there is a research lab in New Iberia that has a ton of monkeys? Well, I didnt either until Darryl told me and he wont tell me WHERE it is. Maybe I’ll just drive down there and drive around until I find it. My dumbass just googled it and here is a link http://www.releasechimps.org/labs/labs-with-chimpanzees/new-iberia-research-center/ it also says NIRC breeds the following species of nonhuman primates: chimpanzee, vervet monkey, cynomolgus macaque, pigtailed macaque, and rhesus macaque. It has 240 chimps! 240!! over 6,000 non human primates! I wish I could open a rehab center for exotics, I would so do that. Darryl wouldnt like it, but he’d have to get over it. lol. I would love it if I had a sloth to care for and rehab. They are so cute. It’s my fav. animal.

umm that’s all.

ciao

365 days of scrapping

undomesticwife — Tue, 30 Dec 2008 19:29:22 +0000

So I have decided to do 365 days of scrapbooking. It’s where you scrap a layout a day. There is a list at DST that DigitalArtiCin has put together. I am posting it here so you can keep track of it with me. Yes, I know there are more than 365 items listed, but oh well. get over it.

1. 10 Changes I’d like to make in my life
2. 10 items I would like to own…
3. 10 things I can live without
4. 10 things you can’t live without
5. 10 ways I am mean to myself are…
6. A Wish
7. Accomplishment (biggest)
8. Admire, who I admire
9. All in the family
10. Allowing: list five things you are not allowed to do
11. Angry: I feel angry when…
12. animal ( favorite-not a pet)
13. Anything on Wheels
14. Appliance (favorite)
15. Artwork (first)
16. backyard
17. Baking with Mom
18. best friends
19. Beverage (favorite)
20. Bible verse (favorite)
21. bike (first) (tricycle, bike w/training wheels)
22. Birth sign characteristics
23. birthdays
24. Birthplace
25. blast from the past
26. Blogs (mine, favorite)
27. Blue-what makes me feel better when I’m feeling blue
28. Body Part (My favorite)
29. Bone break
30. Books (favorite)
31. Braces
32. Broadway play
33. brothers
34. Camera
35. Candy (favorite)
36. car (first)
37. Car accident
38. career day
39. Career/job
40. Caring for Mom/Dad/other
41. changing times………fashion………hair styles etc…
42. Charities (my favorites)
43. Charities I support
44. Childhood room
45. Children
46. Children: the things they say
47. Chore (favorite/least favorite)
48. Circle of Life or Friends
49. Circus (trip)
50. Clothing (favorite)
51. Clutter
52. collection, (favorite) be it collectibles, bears, shoes, purses, etc.
53. College Life
54. Color (favorite, least favorite)
55. Communication (all the different types and changes)
56. Complaining: what do I consistently want to complain/complain about?
57. Compliments (received)
58. Concerts I’ve attended or want to attend
59. Contests Won
60. Cooking lesson
61. Cooking with Mom
62. curls
63. Dance (favorite)
64. Date (first)/First Impression
65. Date, memorable
66. Day at the Beach
67. day in the life of
68. Day of the Week (favorite)
69. Day: My favorite time of the day
70. Day: My perfect day…
71. Deals (my greatest/favorite)
72. decorations (Christmas/holiday)
73. Dentist (first trip)
74. Desert Island Discs (if you could only take one book, one luxury and ten tracks of music to a desert island, what would they be?)
75. Diets
76. Digital Layout (first, hardest, took the longest time, easiest)
77. Disabilities/Abilities
78. Doctor (first trip)
79. domino effect
80. Dream Man/Woman
81. Dreams
82. Dreams (nightmares)
83. Dreams (sweet)
84. Dress (favorite way to dress)
85. Eerie experiences
86. Eerie/ghostly experiences
87. Eighty (describe yourself at this age)
88. Emotional challenges
89. Empty nest
90. Environment (describe your ideal environment)
91. Ethnic background/heritage
92. family secrets
93. family ties
94. Family traditions
95. family traits
96. Family tree
97. favorite subject in school
98. Fear (biggest)
99. feet (from baby to teenager, same with hands)
100. Five childhood accomplishments
101. Five classes that sound fun
102. Five hobbies that sound like fun
103. Five Imaginary Lives
104. Five major activities of my day
105. Five major activities of my week
106. Five objects I treasure
107. Five people I admire
108. Five silly things I used to enjoy doing
109. Five silly things I would like to try once
110. Five skills that would be fun to share
111. Five things I would personally never do that sound fun
112. Five traits I like about myself as an adult
113. Five traits I liked about myself as a child
114. Flower (my favorite)
115. Food
116. food traditions
117. Forgiveness
118. four seasons
119. Friend, my best friend
120. Friend: If I could meet one online….
121. Friends who nurture me
122. Friends: loyal
123. Funny sayings/phrases
124. Game adult (favorite)
125. Game childhood (favorite)
126. Garden
127. Gift/present: the best gift/present I ever received
128. Gift/present: the worst gift/present I ever received
129. Giggles
130. Gimme a break!
131. Gives me a headache!
132. Gives me the warm fuzzies
133. Gives me the willies! (ie spiders, snakes, etc.)
134. Goals
135. Gone but not forgotten
136. Goosebumps (I get them when ________)
137. Graduation(s)
138. Grandma/Grandpa always said . . .
139. Guilty Pleasure
140. Guilty: I feel guilty when…
141. Habits (bad)
142. Habits (good)
143. Haircolor
144. Haircut (first)
145. haircut (Look I did it myself!)
146. Hairstyles (over the years)
147. Happiest Day
148. Happy: what makes me happy
149. Health (my health, health of family)
150. Hear No Evil, See No Evil, Say No Evil
151. High school memories
152. high-school hangouts
153. high-school sweetheart
154. Hobbies
155. holidays
156. Home (dream home)
157. Home improvement
158. Homework
159. House/Home
160. How I met…(fill in blank)
161. Husband/SO
162. I learned from …
163. I love you because
164. I made a difference when ….
165. I secretly enjoy ….
166. I wish I could afford
167. I wish someone invented ………….
168. I’d love to live in _______ country (why?)
169. If I could lighten up a little, I’d….
170. If I had it to do over again…
171. If I wasn’t married or in a relationship, I’d…
172. If I were Queen I would…
173. If it weren’t too late in life, I’d…..
174. In Remembrance
175. Internet friends
176. Internet groups (favorite)
177. Ipod/MP3/CD Player (what’s on mine)
178. It wasn’t me
179. Item of Clothing (favorite)
180. It’s not fair! (Can you tell I have 4 kids?)
181. Jealousy: I am jealous of/when …
182. Jewelry
183. Job (first)
184. Joy: The greatest joy in my life is…
185. Just Like Daddy
186. Just Like Mommy
187. Kid: As a kid, I wanted …
188. Kids Sport
189. Knowing: I never knew __________, until ___________.
190. Lack: The biggest lack in my life is ….
191. Let Freedom Ring
192. Letter to my 13 year old self
193. Life purpose/mission
194. Life: years 11-15-describe
195. Life: years 1-5-describe
196. Life: years 16-20-describe
197. Life: years 21-25-describe past, present, future
198. Life: years 26-30-describe past, present, future
199. Life: years 31-35-describe past, present, future
200. Life: years 36-40-describe past, present, future
201. Life: years 41-45-describe past, present, future
202. Life: years 46-50-describe past, present, future
203. Life: years 51-55-describe past, present, future
204. Life: years 56-60-describe past, present, future
205. Life: years 6-10-describe
206. Life: years 61-65-describe past, present, future
207. Life: years 65-70-describe past, present, future
208. Life: years 71-75-describe past, present, future
209. Life: years 76+-describe past, present, future
210. Light Bulb moments
211. little things
212. Live: Where I live now (town, street, house – describe your environment, how did u get here? Do you want to stay? Is it better/worse than other places you’ve lived? How?)
213. love (first love) or puppy love
214. Love (first)
215. Love: items I love
216. mail/mailbox
217. Makeover Me
218. make-up
219. Makeup routine (or lack of)
220. Me
221. meal/food (favorite)
222. Mispronunications I have made/heard from my kids
223. Miss you
224. Missed the chance to …
225. Missed/wondered: For years, I’ve missed and/or wondered about …
226. Money: I didn’t have any money, so I did this instead….
227. Most embarrassing moment
228. Most Embarrassing Moment(s)
229. Movies – Funniest
230. Movies – Scariest
231. Movies – Worst
232. movies (favorite)
233. Moviestar Crush (favorite)
234. Moving
235. Music (favorite)
236. music lessons
237. Musical instrument (favorite)
238. Name, the meaning of my name, child’s name, ect…
239. neighborhood
240. New Year’s Resolutions: (and at the end of the year, did you keep them?)
241. News (local, state, country, world that intrigued me, changed my life)
242. Nursery rhyme (s)
243. Obituary (what I want mine to say)
244. OCDs (what silly obsessions/compulsions/habits do you have?)
245. One Regret
246. One thing I learned from my Favorite Teacher
247. One thing I want to change in my life
248. Operation/Surgery (first, subsequent)
249. Organizations I belong/belonged to
250. ornaments (Christmas)
251. Out and About
252. outdoors (the great)
253. Outfit (favorite)
254. outfit/shoes when you were little (favorite)
255. pajamas
256. Parenting tips
257. partners in crime
258. Pen pals (as a kid)
259. Personal strengths
260. Personal weaknesses
261. Pet (favorite)
262. pet peeves
263. Pets
264. Pets: games our pets play
265. Phobias
266. Photo bloopers
267. places to go & things to see
268. Plan: Five year plan: (where will you be or would you like to be 5 years from today?)
269. Plan: Ten year plan (where will you be or would you like to be ten years from today?)
270. Pocket full of ??? (what’s in your child’s pockets?)
271. Pocket full of sunshine
272. Politics
273. Pool Time
274. Prom
275. Proudest Moment
276. Purse (items in)
277. Puzzles (favorites now and then)
278. Quiet time
279. Quotes (favorite)
280. Recession/Depression
281. Recipes (favorite)
282. redecorating a room
283. Religion/Spirituality
284. Retirement
285. Roller Coaster ride (first?)
286. Sad: I feel sad when..
287. School
288. scrapper I admire
289. Scrapping Plan: How I plan to use up my digi scrapping supplies
290. scrapzone
291. Season of the Year (favorite)
292. Secret Wish
293. Sewing lesson
294. Shoes
295. Shopping (favorite places)
296. sibling rivalry
297. siblings
298. sisters
299. Sixty-five: If I were 65 and had money, I’d…
300. smells (favorite)
301. Song (favorite)
302. Space (my private space)
303. special family members (grandparents,aunts,uncles,etc)
304. Star Sign/Numerology (what are yours, and what are they supposed to mean?)
305. Success: how I define success
306. Summer Song (what song will always remind you of this summer/year?)
307. Superman/Superwoman
308. Sweet cheeks (face or hiney )
309. Swimming
310. Teacher (favorite)
311. Teachers (didn’t like at first, then did)
312. Teachers (least favorite)
313. Ten Things I Love About You
314. terrible twos
315. TGIF because…..
316. That was funny!
317. That wasn’t funny!
318. That’s a great idea!
319. That’s a really bad idea!
320. Theme park visit
321. then and now
322. Things I do to nurture myself
323. Things I learned from . . .
324. Things I wished I had said
325. Things I wished I hadn’t said
326. Things you wish someone had told you
327. Three wishes
328. Time travel (favorite time in history)
329. Time: My largest time commitment is …
330. Toot (first)
331. Toothless Grin
332. Topics that interest me.
333. town (where I live)
334. Toy childhood (favorite)
335. Toys (adult)
336. Toys (childhood)
337. Toys (favorite)
338. traditions (Christmas)
339. traditions (family, other holiday)
340. Treasure, my greatest
341. Trends of 2000-2009 (favorite)
342. Trends of the 50’s (favorite)
343. Trends of the 60’s (favorite)
344. Trends of the 70’s (favorite)
345. Trends of the 80’s (favorite)
346. Trends of the 90’s (favorite)
347. Trip to the hospital
348. TV shows you watched as a kid
349. Twenty things I enjoy doing
350. Twenty: If I were 20 and had money, I’d….
351. UFOs (unfinished objects)
352. Vacation/holiday (dream)
353. Vacations/Road Trips
354. Video Games
355. Volunteer work
356. Voting (first time, national election, ect…)
357. Walk in my shoes for a Day
358. watch me grow …..kids…pets…
359. Weather events
360. Weekend: My perfect weekend…
361. What changed after kids or pets
362. what I learned from ……my mother ……my grandmother……my dad etc….
363. What things cost
364. What was going on in the world the day you were born: popular songs, politics, etc. (similar to a newspaper from the day a person was born)
365. What was I thinking?
366. When I grow up…
367. When I was little, I believed…
368. When I Wish Upon A Star
369. When you do _____________, it makes me crazy
370. why me?
371. Wildest Moment/Time in Life
372. Wondering: I’ve always wondered ___________.
373. Worry: I worry when …
374. Year: In one year, I’d like to …
375. You Light Up My Life
376. you make me a better person
377. You remind me so much of . . .
378. Your Hope
379. Zoo (trip)

I forgot what

undomesticwife — Wed, 17 Dec 2008 18:57:07 +0000

I was gonna blog about. Let’s see I had a dr’s appt yesterday. I have celiac disease. Which it is an autoimmune digestive disease that damages the villi of the small intestine and interferes with absorption of nutrients from food. What does this mean? Celiac disease is triggered by consumption of the protein called gluten, which is found in wheat, barley and rye. Sounds fun right? So of course there is a special diet for it. Which btw we have NOTHING in our house that is gluten free. YAY me. So hopefully with this diet, I will also lose weight bc I’m fat and I need too. Doc said to join weight watchers, but I cant afford it right now. So I joined sparkpeople.com for now. But I’m having a hard time finding a diet on there that is gluten free. sigh. this blows.

Long time

undomesticwife — Wed, 10 Dec 2008 00:38:53 +0000

no post huh? Everyone probably thought I forgot about my blog. My what? Two readers? Me and my dh. lol Life has been busy the past few months. Let’s see updates:

Me:
I broke my ankle on Nov. 17th. I locked my keys in the house and when I jumped the back fence, my ankle snapped and cracked. I go back to my ortho tomorrow to get my cast off and re-xrayed. Fun Fun. hopefully i’m good to go. I go see my reg. doc on Thurs. Everytime I eat any kind of bread, I get sick. Sooo not fun. I hate it. My photography is picking up a lil bit. I did 3 boudoir sessions in Oct. and an engagement session in Oct. And I might have like 3 weddings next year.

Darryl:
Is working hard as usual. It’s deer season, I become a widow on the weekends. He hasnt shot anything yet. I went with him once and saw 5 deer and shot at 2. Missed both of them. He was pissed especially since I was sitting on his stand. lol. Other than working and hunting not much is going on with him.

Rhesa:
is doing well in school. She might be allergic to nickle, we gotta go back to the pedi and then be sent to an allergist to find out wtf is going on a rash she has. It’s on her belly and face. She is getting more and more sassy and I hate it. why cant they stay good forever? Why do they gotta get sassy as they get older? lol Oh and she has set FIL’s shed on fire last weekend. Yes you read that right. SHE lit it on FIRE. That was great fun. NOT. The kid KNOWS not to mess with fire, but for some reason it went out of her head.

Gavin:
hasnt broken anything in awhile. knock on wood. He will be 6 on the 29th. Sigh. He hasnt grown much that’s for sure. lol. He loves school and is learning a lot. He helps Rhesa with her homework when she needs it.

Alivia:
is actually good at school. She listens to her teacher. which makes me mad, why cant she listen at home? lol She loves singing me the songs she is learning at school. She is so excited that santa is coming. She points things out “can you get me that for christmas?” so far she wants about oh $6,000 worth of toys for xmas. Like that’s gonna happen. lol.

I think that’s it for now. kids are hungry so i gotta go feed them. sigh. being a parent would be so much easier if kids didnt have to eat.

oh and on nov. 4th, the president elect was voted and the winner is obama. i use “winner” lightly.

Updates

undomesticwife — Mon, 22 Sep 2008 02:39:06 +0000

school is going good. Busy Busy. Counseling theories is interesting. Loads of Frued. The rise of modern science is confusing as hell. I never was good at science. Kids are doing good. Rhesa got an “B” in conduct last week. She didnt fuss at her because she beat herself up enough over it. she was so upset, I have no idea what we are going to do if she gets a B on a report card or something. Poor kid. Gavin is lovin kindergarten. Learning lots of new things and being his usual self at school. His teacher loves him. Alivia is loving pre-K. She has not had any bad notes sent home and her closepin has stayed on Green which is good. I’m surprised. lol maybe we need to start the stoplight thing here at home. Need to get some closepins and construction paper. Darryl is busy busy with work. Leaves early and comes home late. sigh. cant wait until this special duty is over and we leave and he goes back to a regular job. sigh. Speaking of jobs, I got a new one. Lifetouch School Portraits. I’m excited. Taking pictures. I’m in training right now. Fun Fun. I got in a car accident on Monday the 15th. I was picking Rhesa and Gavin up from school and someone backed into me in the parking lot. Screwed up my passenger side. So I am waiting for the new parts to come in so I can bring the car into the shot to get fixed. The guy was at fault, so his insurance has to pay for my car, a rental car, and they are giving me $500 for my pain and suffering. Fun. I have whiplash, not so fun. getting better. Neck doesnt hurt as much. well that’s it.

ciao

School Week

undomesticwife — Wed, 13 Aug 2008 22:00:14 +0000

School started Aug. 8th, so this week was the first full week of school for Rhesa. She has had homework everyday this week, so far she likes her teacher, Mrs. T. Tues. was Gavin’s orientation for kindergarten and we met his teacher, Mrs. S. She seems nice. He goes to school tomorrow with the rest of the boys in kindergarten, then on Friday they all start. Alivia went to school today with half the kids in her class. She stays home tomorrow. She LOVES her teacher, Mrs. L. I didn’t get a phone call or a note sent home, so I guess she did good! She said she took a nap at school and she had lunch. That’s all she did, ALLLLL day long according to her. lol. She stays home tomorrow then goes back to school with all of pre-k on Friday. She rode the bus today too. sniff sniff. She’s growing up, my baby isnt a baby anymore. *wahhhhh*

This week is also the last week of school for me until Sept. 2nd. woohoo!! I get a small break. So far I have either 2 A’s or an A and a B. I cant remember. lol. My brain is fried right now. I’m so tired. This weekend is the girls’ birthday party. We are having it in P’ville since Darryl has a hunting meeting that night. Oh boy hunting season will be starting soon, i’m so excited. can you tell? lol

I think that’s all right now. I’ll be back if i think of anything else.

Updates, updates, updates

undomesticwife — Wed, 30 Jul 2008 15:33:17 +0000

Gavin is doing good since his surgery. The first week and a half was bad. He wouldnt eat anything and would wake up in pain. Thought he was going to be put on stronger pain meds, but a cortizone shot later, he is doing good. He has a doctor’s appt on Aug. 19th, with the ortho doc bc it looks like his left leg bows out. I dont remember it doing it before now. Yes, I’m a paranoid mother. Get over it.

School is going alright. My first classes are almost over. They are flying by. I like my sociology class better than my Interpersonal Effectiveness class. But I like my IE teacher better than my Soc teacher. Cant have everything I want huh? Dammit.

We found an English Bulldog breeder and went and met with her last weekend. Found a pup and fell in love with 2 of them. But we cant afford 2 of them. Lots more classes to go. lol Photography is going good. Had my first, second, and third non family photo shoots. I’ll post some of them later.

And I know yall have been missing my useless info! So here is one for ya. Snails do foreplay for 6 HOURS before mating. After 6 hours they shoot a DART into each other (the have both male and female sex organs).

Now some blonde jokes

How did the blonde explain how his helicopter crashed?
He said it was getting cold, so he turned off the ceiling fan.

Why did the blonde quit his job as a restroom attendant?
He couldn’t figure out how to refill the hand dryer.

Why do blondes have more fun?
They are easier to keep amused.

What does a postcard from a blonde’s vacation say?
Having a wonderful time. Where am I?

Gavin, school, whatev else I talk about

undomesticwife — Tue, 08 Jul 2008 02:02:10 +0000

First update on Gavin. His surgery was on July 3rd. He came through it like a trooper. Still taking pain meds but not every 3 hours like we were. His ears aren’t hurting him, he just hates not being able to go swimming until the 17th when we get his ear plugs. He is eating alright, but mostly wants cold stuff still.

School is going alright. 2nd week in. Sometimes it’s hard to keep up with some stuff, but for the most part it’s good. Sociology is confusing at times, I have to look up some of the words in my book. lol. I feel stupid at times, but since Darryl is in the military and we move around a lot, it is easy in that way so I can relate to a lot of different cultures. Interpersonal relationships is kinda hard. I’m not the type to relate to my feelings a lot of times. Ask Darryl. I talk okay I yell but that’s about it. Every now and then I get mushy.

My mom and her boyfriend have decided to get married in June of next year. It’s kinda weird thinking about it. My brother and 2 sisters are walking in the wedding and all the grandkids are being in it. I’m not. I’m taking pictures which is okay with me, I dont have to get all prissy. lol. I’m not sure if she is going to have Adam and Darryl in the wedding. The colors I think are khaki and light blue.

Speaking of parents, I have not heard from my father in like 4 months or more. Pretty sad since he only lives an hour away. I dont know if Skye sees and talks to him or not. Quite frankly he has had his chance and I give up. No more. I’m not dealing with it anymore. I have tried and tried but nothing I do seems to help anything so fuck it.

3 years before we leave Louisiana. We want to go overseas but no clue where we wanna go. I want England, Guam, Japan, or Alaska. I’m not sure where Darryl wants to go. The kids want to go back to Italy. Like they even remember being there. lol. I think Darryl wouldnt mind Guam too much. Lots of fishing and stuff to do in the ocean. Right up his alley, ya know?

Yesterday, July 6th, made 7 years we have been married. Some days it doesnt feel that long, sometimes it does. Most people thought we wouldnt make it, but here we are. Haha fuck you people I went to school with. sorry had to get that out.

okay that’s all.

ciao

Gavin

undomesticwife — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 17:43:54 +0000

has to have surgery next thurs. July 3rd. I have been wondering for a few weeks if he has a hearing problem bc we practically have to yell at him for him to hear us. So I made a dr’s appt for him. We go in and they do a hearing test on him like 4 times before he hears anything, then they tell me that “everything is fine. he is hearing just fine” wtf? not if you have to do the test 4 fucking times for him to hear anything! So i asked to be sent to an ENT. So the ENT appt was today. We get there and I explain to the doc what’s going on and he looks at Gavin’s ears, nose, and throat. Then tells me he wants to do a test on Gavin to see if there is any fluid in his hears. So I agree. They do the test on Gavin. Then the doc tells me that he can see the fluid in Gavin’s ears, he just wanted to make sure with the test. He said that there is so much fluid in Gavin’s ears that his ear drums dont even move when air is blown into his ears. So it’s no wonder the boy cant hear! So he is putting tubes in G Man’s ears and taking out his adnoids and tonsils. He said the sooner the better. I agree. I want this done and over with and Gavin healed before school starts. So Gman will have tubes and cant go swimming for at least 2 weeks after the surgery. poor man. so I’ll keep my blog updated on that.

Rhesa and Alivia are driving me nuts. I love them to death but omfg give mommy a break every now and then PLEASE. Forget terrible two’s, Alivia is in horrendous threes. She is yelling at us and yells “i hate you” when we tell her that no she cant do something or having something. So she throws a fit and i put her in her room until she stops, then she comes out and says she’s sorry. but it drives me nuts. and then Rhesa is thinking she can boss the other 2 around and tries to get them in trouble all the time. I’m ready to pull my hair out! I cant wait until school starts! lol.

Speaking of school, mine starts tomorrow. woohoo! wish me luck that i dont get stressed out.

ciao

header

undomesticwife — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 02:30:42 +0000

is made with Urban Medley by Madam Mim. Available at Cat Scraps Check it out. I love it. Here is a layout I did with it MASK.

so anyway, life has been busy. Darryl took a 2 week leave from work and we went to Grand Isle for 3 days, then to Simmesport for 2 days, then to Prairieville for a few days. Busy Busy Busy. Seems like we were hardly home during those 2 weeks. We actually got along. surprise surprise right?

So here read this

This mask I wear,
she serves me well,
she hides my pain,
so they can’t tell.

They see her smile,
never my tears,
she shows no sorrow,
she fights all my fears.

They believe she is me,
if only they knew,
that she is my mask,
my saviour too.

My scars she hides,
behind laughter and lies,
she say’s she is fine,
but slowly she dies.

whatcha think? I dont know why i’ve been in this mood where I just want to be blah. left alone. brood. I have no sex drive right now, no self esteem, nothing. I dont feel like I am in a “low” but maybe I am. IDK. Wish it will end soon though. I hate feeling like this. Maybe it’s because I am so stressed out.

I start school on the 26th of this month. wish me luck. i am taking 2 classes. both online at argosy university. I am taking Interpersonal Effectiveness and Sociology in a Global Perspective. The kids start school at the beginning of Aug. this year. ALL 3 of them! Whatever will I do without a kid?? More time for scrapping. lol. Right now the only thing I plan on is taking a hot bath BY MYSELF and going pee BY MYSELF. I mean I can not remember the last time i got to soak in a tub without a kid in there. lol. or sit down to go pee and I hear “what you doing? dont baget to wipe you pee-pee” can you tell what i repeat everyday to the 3 year old? lol

okay kids are in bed, i am going to go and try and sneak a shower before darryl gets home.

ciao